MY SEVEN DAYS THROUGH HELL AND BACK

MY TRIP THRU HELL IN SEVEN DAYS

BY

LEONARD BRUCE

I WENT TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM A WEEK AGO LAST MONDAY ON MAY 4TH 2015 OR SO IT WAS. I WAS IN HORRIBLE PAIN WITH MY LEFT EYE AND FACE SWOLLEN THAT I WAS EVEN TALKING ABOUT SUICIDE IT HURT SO BAD.I DIDN’T KNOW IT WAS SHINGLES. I THOUGHT THIS NEWEST OBSTABLE WERE THREE THINGS……CELLUITIS. A DEGENERATIVE OF THE LEFT SIDE OF MY CANCEROUS JAWBONE OR ANOTHER STROKE OR A SIDE EFFECT OF MY RECENT CANCER.

ANYWAY I WAS STRAPPED INTO A BED AT THE ER AND FOR FIVE HOURS LAID THERE STILL IN HORRIBLE PAIN AND WANTING TO DIE. MY LEFT EYE AND LEFT SIDE OF MY FACE WAS SWOLLEN AND MY EYE WAS SHUT. I HAD THOUGHT ABOUT LOSING SIGHT IN MY LEFT EYE. WHATEVER IT WAS I KNOW THAT I WOULD HAVE TO GIVE UP MY PET CATS TO THE HUMANE SOCIETY AND HAVE MY CAR REPOED TO THE FINANCE COMPANY DUE TO MY LACK OF EYESITE. I HAD CALLED THE HUMANE SOCIETY EARLIER BEFORE MY TRIP TO HELL. I WILL NEVER SEE MY TWO CATS AGAIN.

I WAS GIVEN A TON OF TESTS, BLOODWORK AND A MRI ON THE LEFT SIDE OF MY FACE, A CHEST XRAY AND WAS SENT TO MY ROOM ON AN IV OF ANTIBIOTICS AND PAIN MEDICATIONS.. THE PCP BROUGHT HER ASSOCIATE INTO THE HOSPITAL AND SHE SAID IT WASN’T MY DEGERATIVE CANCEROUS JAWBONE BUT SHE THOUGHT CELLUITTIS WAS CAUSING THE PAIN THUS THE PAIN IV MEDS. A WRONG DIAGNOSIS FOR THE BONE AND THE CELLUITIS.

DAY TWO:

THE PAIN WAS SO BAD THAT I WAS THINKING ABOUT DEATH AND KILLING MYSELF. MY PETS HAD GONE TO THE HUMANE SOCIETY AND I WAS LEFT WITH NO ONE TO CARE FO. MY ARMS WERE GIVING OUT WITH ALL THE BLOOD WORK AND THE IV MEDS THAT THEY WERE POPPING THESE VEINS LEFT AND RIGHT. I HAD TO GO TO GET A CT OR ANOTHER MRI, I CAN’T TELL WHICH WAS WHICH, ON MY BRAIN TO SEE IF I WAS HAVING OR WILL HAVE ANOTHER MAJOR STROKE SINCE I HAD A SMALL ONE THAT PREVIOUS FRIDAY. I WAS IN THE MRI FOR 35 MINUTES FOR MY BRAIN SCAN. THEY FOUND A SMALL BLEEDER DEEP IN MY BRAIN THAT CAUSES THESE MINI STROKES. ANOTHER THING I GOT TO WORRY ABOUT…..DEATH BY A BRAIN HEMORAGE, OF DEATH BY THIS DAMN PAIN. BRAIN BLEED WAS NUMBER THREE.

DAY THREE:

THESE TWO DOCTORS THAT MISDIAGNOSED MY CONDITION BROUGHT IN A SPECIALIST IN DISEASE CONTROL. SHE DIAGNOSED ME WITHIN 5 MINUTES AS SHINGLES AROUND MY LEFT EYE AND LEFT SIDE OF MY FACE. THAT WAS THE CORRECT ONE THE CORRECT DIAGNOSES. I WAS GOING TO HAVE MASSIVE ANTIBIOTICS, PAIN RELIEF AND HOPEFULLY A RELIEF FROM ALL THIS SUFFERING IF THEY COULD FIND A GOOD VEIN. I AGAIN HAD TO GO INTO MINOR SURGERY FOR A MAINLINE PORT CONNECTOR THAT WILL STOP ALL THESE STICKS ON MY ARMS AND I WILL HAVE A PORT FOR MY BLOOD TESTS AND ANOTHER PORT FOR MY MEDS.

DAY FOUR:

SINCE I WAS DIAGNOSED AS SHINGLES I WAS SHUT OFF FROM ANY VISITORS, FRIENDS, PASTORS AND EACH MEDICAL NURSE AND TECH HAD TO WEAR A GOWN AND GLOVES. I FELT LIKE A WOUNDED ANIMAL IN A CAGE. I FELT SO ALONE AND LONELY. I FELT LIKE I WAS IN JAIL IN HADES, THE ANTIBIOTICS AND PAIN MEDICATION HADN’T GOTTEN FULLY INTO MY SYSTEM YET AND I STILL HURT LIKE HELL. AT LEAST THE PHYSICIANS SAVE MY EYE.

DAY FIVE:

IT IS SATURDAY AND ALL THE MAJOR PHYSICIANS LEFT IT UP TO THEIR SUBS AND ASSOCIATES. THEY HAD TALKED ABOUT GOING HOME THE FOLLOWING MONDAY. I WAS GIVEN A BAG OF ANTIBIOTICS WITH PAIN FLUIDS EVERY SIX HOURS AROUND THE CLOCK WITH MY USUAL HEART MEDS AND EYE DROPS MEDS WITH ANTIBIOTIC EYE DROPS ON MY LEFT EYE. I STILL WAS CONTAGIOUS EVEN THOUGH THE SHINGLES WASN’T AND I HAD A NORMAL FEVER SINCE THURSDAT THREE DAYS AGO. I WAS FEELING ALITTLE BETTER GOING INTO DAY SIX BUT I FELT WORSE KNOWING THAT MY CATS ARE IN CAGES LIKE MYSELF.

DAY SIX:

EVERYONE WAS THERE….FAMILIES, MOTHERS, PASTORS, FRIENDS AND DOCTORS IN OTHER PATIENTS ROOMS EXCEPT MINE. I WAS FEELING ALOT BETTER BUT THESE GODS THEY CALL THEMSELVES DOCTORS SAID I HAD TO STAY UNTIL MONDAY. I FELT SO ALONE AND LONELY FOR SOMEONE. I EVEN PLOTTED MY DEMISE. SINCE I DIDN’T HAVE ANY CATS I WAS GOING TO GET THE CAR REPOSSED, TAKE THE MONEY OUT OF THE BANK, CUT OFF MY TV AND CABLE INTERNET COMPO AND LEAVE. OR WAS IT JUST MY DELUSIONAL FANTASY OF SUFFERING THAT MUCH CONSTANT PAIN.

DAY SEVEN:

HOME…..I WASN’T OUT OF THE WOODS YET. I HAD TO TAKE MEDS FOR SEVEN DAYS AND ANOTHER SET OF MEDS THREE TIMES EACH DAY TO STOP THESE SHINGLES. I STILL HAD MY CANCER. STILL HAD MY BRAIN BLEED AND MINI STROKES. STILL HAD MY BAD EYESITE BUT I WAS HERE, ALONE AT HOME. I HAD TO TAKE A GOOD SHOWER, WASH MY CLOTHES, TAKE MY MEDS, CHECK MY MAIL, CONNECT MY INTERNET AND CABLE, AND TRY TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE IF AT ALL POSSIBLE, FOR AS LONG OR AS SHORT A LIFE AS I CAN…..ALONE…..YET MY GOD WAS WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY.

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